November 5, 2009

the labor theory of value and liberal purses

Can we have a milking contest?

Who can milk the most sympathy from a 6 line sentance for fair trade products?  The following details should be included:

name: J—vika D-v-lopm-nt Soci-ty
community: marginalised women, west bengal india
type: kantha

the less detail / more implied gong noises the better.

These intricate hand stitched cards are made by women from the J—VIKA D-v-lopm-nt Soci-ty in West Bengal, India.  J—VIKA means livelihood in sanskrit and comes from the root meaning “source of life”.  We promote sustainable income generation projects, vocational skills training and production centered activities that improve the social status of rural women in West Bengal. Your purchase helps sustain J—vika’s work while keeping the traditional Bengali art of Kantha stitch alive.  Contact us for more information on J—vika or to place an order of our other products.   Thank you!

That sort of blows, but I would like to remind everyone that this is precisely how I got into college.

Can someone blow this paragraph out of the water.  It’s fun, try it.

by the way, I buy fair trade all the time. especially in dhaka. how about that.  and like jess mentioned last night, despite all of this, having local production centers is better than pushing urban migration for a data entry job 3 hours away.

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November 2, 2009

god. how much catholic(school) guilt is in this post

finally beginning to sink my teeth into SRI, the sustainable agriculture project I’m helping with.  then again, work has been hard.  my enthusiasm comes and goes in spurts because of my floating role in the organization.  i am still negotiating whether or not to cross certain lines and fully participate.  i should take advantage of this year, i know. i know i should be doing many things and not having time is not an excuse.  i know the type of people i should be meeting, i know the work I should be doing. but guess what, i’m okay not fullfilling everyones expectations.  i don’t have time to be inspiring, i’m just trying to do what i can right now.

despite certain crisis, (it’s not a crisis.  i am okay not oozing radical crit out of every orifice and pore) somehow i’ve become a busy person.  when i’m not working, i have only nights and sundays to be in kolkata.  rather than skim the reason i’m here, i’ll give justice to everything when I have a day to think and break it down. but here are some silly compromising photos of halloween.

we went to a horrendous halloween party, then to amazing dim sum at 4am, ending with a boat ride on the hoogley.  many were lost during the course of the night. they were sorely missed.

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ps- it was so hot that we ditched our costumes within the first half hour.

pps- some of the folks i have met in kolkata are really wonderful. and this is coming from someone who generally despises everyone.

ppps- this psudo crisis crap is really crap. i’m having a great time, i’m learning a lot, and i’m honing what it is i want to do in the immediate future.  i’m not as insecure as i make it sound. no worries wonderful people. my closeted but abounding enthusiasm is still chugging on.

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October 29, 2009

what stipends get you

is it alright if all i want to do is stay home?

considering this is my home:

i ran away from work today and unpacked all my stuff.  it’s done.  this place is obscene.

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October 28, 2009
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We are being paan for halloween.

My first thought was, oh god, i have always been halfassed about costumes so I could easily get a grey pant + top and be a taxi driver.  but then we came up with paan. It was the least exploitative option.

Also. My main impetus for loosing weight these days is so I won’t get hit by a passing bus when I’m sitting on the edge of an auto.  I don’t want to creep anyone out but a woman that had joined my NGO a few years ago was riding in our auto (we rent one to go into the villages and for audio campaigns ect since the roads are too small for big vehicles) and she lost a leg.  A passing auto rubbed off her leg.  I’m not kidding.

Good day!

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October 27, 2009

Turning 2hrs into 30mins. My Bengaliness went up +3 points

getting around the city is like hitchhiking.  You don’t know if that bus is really going to come in the next 15-30-90-ever….

today I won.  I really hate getting shoved around with my laptop at a fast moving intersection so I could jump on a bus that takes 90+mins to get anywhere.  I would rather eat a lizard than take taxis to Joka.  So instead I did this:

Walk 10mins - Auto - Metro - Auto - Auto

22.5 rupees!  30-40 mins!  Heck yes.  That is across town dude.

AHH. Well I’m happy.

By the way.  Autos in Kolkata go either one direction or in set routes.  You can’t be like, take me to my aunts house by the tree and the thing hamenamanenah…  You have to know the major intersections and figure it out yourself.

Also, I just stole this from google, but that’s an auto. three-four if theyre skinny people in the front, 3 ppl in the back.  ROCK

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October 25, 2009

23, another inconsequential number

I have a home.

When I came to the new flat I heard the mozart aria everyone imagines as the soundtrack for heavenly ascension.  This is it.  Jess hasn’t seen it in daylight yet, when she gets back from her trip I think she’ll go nuts.


I had my sad orange, my borrowed water and a handful of muesli for breakfast. re-packed all my stuff, hailed a taxi and loaded 5 suitcases.  Seriously, before leaving I gave the couch a good kick to see how high I could make the dirt-cloud go.  2 feet.

Anyhow.  Daud uncle and his friend/my new Mashi Koily (sort of the most badass woman I’ve met this month) shortly took me to their home, let me shower, fed me wonderful food, gave me presents? and now I’m back, ready to put my books on a shelf and hang my clothes up.  AMAZING!


I think the rest of the day is going to be chill, low key dinner.  Mmm, just the way I like it.  A few days ago we went to see a show at Some Place Else and Tantra.  Haha.  It’s bizzar to be bobbing your head to credence clearwater revival and eating chanachur.  The band sang me happy birthday at some point. mwhaha.

It’s all too good.

I wish I had my usb cord to show you photos of this flat, but instead here’s post Some Place Else.

By the way, Meghna another AIF fellow visited this week.  Awchskadj, I really wish she was placed here.  Good peoples.

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October 24, 2009

Okay. I am an imbecile.

I went ahead and made most entries private.

Look forward to more artwork and photos from here on.

i believe i’m turning 23 tomorrow. i’m also moving out all of our things into our final flat tomorrow.  i really want to hmm.. start.  it’s great meeting people and all, but i think I’m ready to spend time with myself and be a thinking person again.

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October 23, 2009

goodbye flat #6787897

guess what.

mold.

We’re moving apartments once again.  So before we re-locate again on monday, I wanted to share with yall these photos of the obscene lifestyle that could have been.

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October 20, 2009

Do our lives really get wiped clean after a masters?

I have to say, I love my job and the people working here.

I hope this year stays relevant and doesn’t fade like university activism has.  Recalling university movement work is like trying to revive a corpse long dead.  I wouldn’t say I was a part of movement work last year really.  I do value my experiences working with snlp-rebelvoices-even my last job in a way separate from coalition work.  It’s not guilt of juggling the priority of experiences-scenes, but I’m not as concerned at finding magical equilibrium or connections between all these multiple experiences.  I’d rather do many things, many ways.  Constructing these silly lines to walk on or even project how i will become who i am supposed to become, I’m not concerned too much.  I am okay with the idea of the academy and i’m not irrationally pushing forward field work and community work as the most sigularly important form of participating in the left.  life is damn long.. as they would say here. all this space shouldn’t be filled in with rigid blueprints.

What terrible blog writing.

Speaking of time and change, Kali puja & Diwali just passed.  Kali is the goddess of time among other things.  Here’s my favorite Kali thakur.  Goddess got curves. Mmmhm.

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October 18, 2009
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October 13, 2009

Can We All Just Do Some Problem Tree Activities?

Wait, what?  Have you heard of putting a knife under your child’s pillow to ward off the evil eye?  Because that’s what this commercial just showed.

This giant lizard opened the Velcro window netting while I was away this weekend and my room is a beetle, ant, moth, gnat and mosquito colloquium.  Colloquium? Where’d that come from.. I sealed the netting but the lizard/s keep coming back. 3rd time I’ve flung it/them off the sill.

Thrilling. I know.

I believe we have a flat.  I’ll say it with confidence when I have the key.  We tried to get a 3 bedroom, but it just wasn’t meant to be.  This flat (I haven’t seen it yet) is a 2 bedroom with apparently outstanding 80s flare, and practically free (thanks to Jess’s connect).  It’s in Ballygong and across the street from a Haldiram’s!  Which I thought was a grocery store, but it’s a restaurant?  Either way, rejoice.

Anyhow, let me take you on a journey through the wondrous world of SRI fieldwork.

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This is called rice. You eat this.  It is very common to the region and peoples since ancient times.

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SRI is heavy on field work.  The photo is of Susmita-di, Chobi-di in red and Arti-di in blue, all SRI team members.  We were doing the rounds visiting SRI farmers to record and follow-up on the growth of the panicles.  It’s about half a month until the harvest is due so we have a lot of work ahead.  So far 27 small farmers are participating and we need to execute our outreach campaign before the November planting season begins.

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Here’s the thing with field work.  It is strenuous and time consuming, but we have a pretty great relationship with the community.  Kalpona’s daughter gets sick, the staff go visit.  Some of the SRI staff were once farmers themselves and in general our field staff is of the community and come from the self-help-groups.  You get the picture.  In other words, field work also means we get to chill with folks and enjoy the occasional tea, moori, fresh cucumber and veggies folks offer.  Yeah, it’s awesome.  So Susmita-di and Proticando-da (white shirt mustachio) were really into taking a lunch break and hanging out with a lady farmer who was keen on showing us how fresh moori is made.  It’s sort of like popcorn-rice.

Moori is sort of the poor-mans stomach filler and the rich man’s diet food.  You don’t use oil because it is made on top of this charcoal-like sand.  Moori makin’ is all about multi-tasking and skill so you should all recognize.

Selling moori in bulk is one of a dozen side-hustles everyone does in the village.

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The lady who lives here also has a wild parrot that asks guests if they want chai.

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This is the ruins of the British watch tower I mentioned earlier.  Twisted Secret Garden moment.

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West Bengal is nuts.  Beautiful.

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Just some trails on our way to the plots.  Can you believe what I am doing this year? Folks can certainly work on projects like SRI, but who the hell in my position can work on SRI at this level?  I have access to the community and I feel like I’ve been indigenized into the NGO pretty well.  It still blows my mind.

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I’m really not about the photographing of little brown children for display, but this is Malu.  Malu is a little porkpie and the neighbors were talking about how he is constantly eating veggies. So I said, oh that’s good, he likes veggies! and they’re like no, he eats the crop we sell.  Oh.

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We visited one family that shames the swiss family robinson.  They have their hand in 12 simultaneous small industries.  First they have a really good year round vegetable rotation, they also produce and sell surjomuki oil, their SRI rice was also one of the highest yielding, as you see in the photo various lentils are also harvested, they have a pond so they own a small fishery where they even breed shrimp, and look!  The reason their chicken coop, which is also an excellent source of income, is above the water because the natural cooling system the pond provides keeps the chickens healthier, while the chicken poop and extra feed that falls through the bottom become fish feed.   Talk about sustainable.  Who needs Swedish Development institutes investing in model villages that introduce totally out of wack (but cool, very cool) environmental technology when sustainable practices like this are done.   Don’t answer that.

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This is called a rice field. It often happens that rice is grown in this fields.   So instead of speaking English with an English-Medium accent (British-Indian) which was the plan, my regular English has completely degenerated.  If this field were divided into quadrants, the SRI plot is on the north east side (short stock).

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Another way to generate income in the village is through chikan and embroidery.  A second cousin of mine does this for Aarong in Bangladesh and the saris are sold 15x higher than the cost of labor.  Listen, before I end on a bad note.  I have been getting angry passively listening to this same narrative about the lazy, stupid native. Did I say native? I meant woman.  We’ve all written long essays on exactly what we think about neoliberal agendas, and I just wrote another one in the context of all these NGOs, lecturers and Specialists I’ve been meeting who love speaking for women workers.  My head would get cut off if I just publish it as a blog instead of a clean, edited essay.  Anyway.  The point is, comments by giant funding agency representatives and board members who say things like “These women, they just don’t know how to think.” almost recycle Moynihan-esque rhetoric.  If the basic assumptions about poverty is that the Indian woman’s inability to think independently, their attachment to cultural values and traditions (I just threw up in my mouth for a second, hold on), that they’re just lazy and would rather depend on the NGO for employment (what and drive Cadillac rickshaws?) then just think of the poverty-alleviation models that are created based on these ideas!!!!!  Some of these programmes feel like they run with total disregard to anything that the community is saying or identifying as a limitation.  A basic issue that women say over and over again is mobility.  Mobility breaks into different categories from restrictive families to the simple fact that the service industry in any modern city is concentrated where the capital (cash money) is.   Ain’t no working class neighborhoods around the Guchhi store.  Even if you spell out things like, 1- the ridiculous distance it takes to commute to these jobs 2- the expense it takes to travel these distances 3- the unsafe environments women are put in 4- the simple fact that after a 14 hour shift the girl ends up going home at midnight ect ect….. why, as a specialist, would you go out of your way to recommend women to suck it up and fight their family and patriarchy and blah blah bloody blah in order to keep your awesome exploitative job?  The gall to call women who have real problems lazy or stupid or lacking ambition and initiative.


Seriously.

Instead of creating projects that cater to the specific circumstances of communities, some of these entrepreneurial interest groups - specialists - lecturers create models that are essentially twisted profit-based business plans carrying the same business values, but are beaten into wearing a nonprofit face.

I’m speaking in huge generalisations.  I’m not talking about my NGO or anything associated with AIF.  I’ve been going to these strange lectures and kitty-tea parties and country clubs and having lunch and chai with all kinds of professionals in the sector.  Most of them are AWESOME, some of them …inspire me to write that last litany.

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October 12, 2009

#OF TAXIS I SINGLE HANDEDLY BROKE : 3

i am bad luck for taxi drivers in kolkata.  i took a cab this morning whose engine sparked and smoked and finally burnt out on the bypass.  i get into a second taxi to get to work, and about 2km from my office the taxi driver hits a motorcyclist. oh my god.  it was awful.  the cyclist didn’t get hurt badly, but he was stumbling to get back on his bike.  last week i was a block away from my office when the police decide to search the car and lo and behold, take away his license.

we hit a motorcyclist today forchristssake.

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October 10, 2009

come visit

I was in the fields today and one of the lady farmers was like, “hey you wanna see the light house built by the British in my backyard?”

I’m like, ptyeah.

I usually don’t take a camera but I did today!!

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October 9, 2009

Strange Soliloquies – BMF coast to coast

Bengali Man Fail

Oh, I’m just going to let it out.  I met a pretty attractive Bengali man this week.  I shouldn’t get too descriptive but he fit 3 major requirements.  Glasses… artist… Marxist…  who talks crap about pseudo-intellectuals.  Who doesn’t here though?  Anyway, this guy was handsome and charismatic but the whole situation was an epic fail.  It wasn’t just a fail, it was a continuous fail, sort of like that time I saw that old lady fall up an escalator.  Over, and over, and over again.

I ended up going to a group dinner …. and it was easily the strangest experience in Kolkata so far.  I did not translate.   Literally, everyone was exhausted by the end of it.  Humor and nuance became this colossal fortress that rose up like the Himalayas.  And no one has the stubbornness of Alexander so I think we all gave up and stewed in silence for quite some time.  In fact I think he went home thinking I was some american neo-con, or maybe just an idiot.  Anyhow, IT MUST BE EXTREMELY DIFFICULT FOR ALL THE FELLOWS WHO DO NOT SPEAK THE LANGUAGE OF THEIR PLACEMENT SITES.

Also, everyone was talking about state repression and Maoists, but it felt like a ‘let’s prove how left we are while we drink chaa and biscuits’ game.  Egads.  1, I can’t participate in things like that, 2, I don’t want to participate in things like that, 3, atels.  Atels is the phrase in Bengali?  Pointless masturbatory political monologueing is a global pastime and Kolkata is no exception.

Speaking of Atels

One thing that caught me by surprise was the relevance of postmodern theory at my NGO.   There is a lot of enthusiasm around implementing conceptual innovation and using theory to push the NGO forward.  At first I waved it off as elite admins who read some subaltern studies and liked making lite use of the lexicon in grant proposals… but maybe not.  (Aren’t I horrible by the way?)  To be able to conceive power and empowerment is vital to the designing, evaluating and implementing of programs.  This is a type of praxis.  Let’s not get ahead of ourselves, but it’s pretty significant for me to find a new form where theory meets community*…. albeit through familiar vertical routes.  Hello community, meet theory.  They’re not a couple yet, but they’re dating.

Again, the point is relevance.  I am just noticing the differences in approach.  Whether or not empowerment itself is silencing is just a conversational exercise, but having it and then creating programs that are informed by it… that’s pretty rad.  At the end of the day it’s so weird walking around here and hearing folks talk about the need to adopt more discourse in planning.  WHERE AM I!?

Peace!

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